Monday, April 5, 2010
Almost 2 months down
What a amazing journey so far. I have really had such a good time. I am coming up on my 2 months of going to school and its been great. Scary thought that in 6 1/2 months, Ill be finished. I have not missed a day, I am so afraid to miss something.
I am learning more and more how Self-Critical I am of myself. It's actually rather sad. I spend the majority of my time, telling myself how bad I am doing. Its something I have to seriously work on, every moment of the day. Being so hard on myself, has given me such low confidence in school. But I think I have finally noticed it and now I can finally work on it. Because its only hurting me more. It is preventing me from being creative and stopping me from really liking what I am creating. I am going into the business or making others beautiful and creating art each and every client. I need to really love myself and think what I do is of worth, before I will ever enjoy my job. So far I am so in love with what I have learned, I just need to work on me on the inside.
I am working everyday to build my confidence to stand up and volunteer to take a client. I never knew how terrified I was of people, as far as doing this line of work. I know for a fact, had I tried this profession earlier in my life, I would of failed. I think I am in the right place in my life now, to really step up to the plate, once I convince myself. I have to remind myself the majority of these people know this is a school and we aren't going to be perfect. Ha, that's my biggest struggle, convincing myself.
I am learning more and more how Self-Critical I am of myself. It's actually rather sad. I spend the majority of my time, telling myself how bad I am doing. Its something I have to seriously work on, every moment of the day. Being so hard on myself, has given me such low confidence in school. But I think I have finally noticed it and now I can finally work on it. Because its only hurting me more. It is preventing me from being creative and stopping me from really liking what I am creating. I am going into the business or making others beautiful and creating art each and every client. I need to really love myself and think what I do is of worth, before I will ever enjoy my job. So far I am so in love with what I have learned, I just need to work on me on the inside.
I am working everyday to build my confidence to stand up and volunteer to take a client. I never knew how terrified I was of people, as far as doing this line of work. I know for a fact, had I tried this profession earlier in my life, I would of failed. I think I am in the right place in my life now, to really step up to the plate, once I convince myself. I have to remind myself the majority of these people know this is a school and we aren't going to be perfect. Ha, that's my biggest struggle, convincing myself.
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